Brianna’s Feminization Story

Brianna reveals how his feminization took roots at a young age

How his aunt played feminization games…

Here is my story of my early memories of my feminization

A lot of us lived with my grandparents in Queens right after the war.  My aunt was married to my mother’s brother.  She was a high-class southern belle, very sexy and flirty, judging from photographs.  I was the pride of the family and I think she was jealous of all the attention I was receiving, especially after her first child was born a year after me.  Among the clothes I was dressed in was a French beret.  She teased me that I looked like a girl in it. I didn’t want to wear it after that, but my father made me wear it. I don’t know if she had anything to do with that, but in later years my father claimed that she had made a play for him, and she said the same.  A little later she caught me playing with myself.  I was probably 3 years old at the time. She said she was going to tell on me.  Subsequently, my father and I took a walk to a soda store about 3 blocks from the house.  As we turned the corner onto the main road, he said to me “I understand you’ve been playing with yourself down there.” crossdressers auntRight away I thought of my aunt, and knew she had snitched on me.  “Better stop,” he said, “or you’ll turn into a girl.”  This inflamed me with sexual lust, but he probably took my reaction for embarrassment.  I told him I would stop, thereby lying to him for the first time and acquiring a secret.  I am convinced my aunt told him to say that to me, assuring him it would stop me from masturbating. I have since learned, from a cousin-in-law, that my aunt played feminization games with at least two of her sons.  Just before we left for California, I was spending the weekend at their house and she got her son to grab me from behind, and proceeded to kiss me, wearing thick red lipstick.   She spread it all over my mouth, making me look (in her words) “just like a girl.”  Then we returned to my house in Queens and suddenly my mother announced we were leaving for the airport in 5 minutes. crossdresser goes to CaliforniaWe flew to California to find my deserted father and make him pay child support.  We left practically everything behind.  All I took were a small fortune in comic books and the fetish my aunt had imprinted me with.  The comics are long gone, but the fetish has stayed with me all my life: Sex = changing into a girl. Brianna

UCONN Show in the Snow

These boots aren"t made for slogging!
After a mild January and February, winter has decided to go out with a bang a few days before the first day of spring. Weather people are predicting 16 to 26 inches of snow to fall here by Wednesday! I hope they are wrong because Friday, I will be at UCONN and I don"t look forward to dealing with snowy and icy sidewalks. I do own a half dozen pairs of women"s boots, but they are more fashionable than practical, so I may have to resort to wearing boy boots to slog around campus. The reason I will be at UCONN is to attend the True Colors Conference where I will be presenting a workshop titled "Makeup Basics for Trans Females." The Conference guide describes my workshop thusly, "Putting on your face can be a cosmetic calamity if you don"t have a roadmap. This workshop provides guidance and tips for the transgender female on how to successfully navigate the world of cosmetics so that she can start looking like the female she really is." Last year, I had over 40 people in attendance for that workshop, so I am looking forward to the Conference, but not the weather.  
Source: ShopBazaar
 
Vitalij S

10 Lingerie Items Every Crossdresser and Transgender Woman Should Own

Wearing lingerie is a guaranteed way to feel feminine. Best of all, it’s something you can indulge in on a daily basis. What are the lingerie items every (or at least, almost every) crossdresser and transgender woman should own? Read on for my top 10 picks!

1. Basic black or nude bra

Every girl needs a basic bra, so a simple nude or black bra is a must. If you’re having trouble finding your size, try the Leading Lady Lightly Padded Contour Underwire Bra. It comes in a wide range of sizes that would fit most crossdressers and transgender women. (Band sizes 36-54, cup sizes A-G)

2. Panty gaff

For a flat and feminine look, a panty gaff is your best friend. A gaff, of course, is an undergarment designed to offer smoothing up front. Here are a few options:
  • Classic Gaff by The Dress Form Store
  • Super Strong Hiding Gaff by Suddenly Fem
  • Lace Control Panty Gaff by Glamour Boutique

3. Shaping camisole

Who can’t use a little slimming in the middle? A shaping camisole will help trim your waist and belly without squeezing you like a corset or girdle. I like the camisoles from Yummie Tummie, which go up to a size 3x.

4. Padded panty

If you crave curves (and who doesn’t?), padded panties offer an instant solution. Your options range from light lifting to full-on hip and butt shaping. Here are a few of my favorites:
  • Light shaping – Butt Lifting Padded Panties By TrueShapers
  • Medium shaping – The Glamour Gal Silicone Hip and Butt Padded Shaper
  • Full shaping – Veronicas by Classic Curves

5. Nude or black pantyhose

While women don’t wear pantyhose as often as they used to, pantyhose looks more polished than bare skin and enhances the appearance of your legs. Your lingerie wardrobe should include a pair of black and/or nude hose.

6. Slinky nightie

There’s nothing like slipping into a slinky nightgown to make you feel extra feminine. Whether you prefer long or short, you should own at least one silky nightie. Or better yet, buy a few in different lengths and colors.

7. Basic panties

Sometimes simple is best! Whether you prefer thongs, bikinis, or briefs, you should own at least a few basic panties.

8. Sexy bra and panty set

While the basics are important, half the fun of lingerie is expressing your sensuous side. That’s why no wardrobe is complete without at least one super sexy bra and panty set.

9. Nubra

The Nubra is an adhesive bra that’s fantastic for creating cleavage. Since it’s backless and strapless, it can be worn alone or under another bra. To learn how to create feminine cleavage with the Nubra, see my tutorial here.

10. Silk or satin robe

A silk or satin robe is a classic boudoir piece that will make you feel ultra feminine. You should have at least one so you have something sensuous to slip into when you are at home.

UCONN Show in the Snow

These boots aren"t made for slogging!
After a mild January and February, winter has decided to go out with a bang a few days before the first day of spring. Weather people are predicting 16 to 26 inches of snow to fall here by Wednesday! I hope they are wrong because Friday, I will be at UCONN and I don"t look forward to dealing with snowy and icy sidewalks. I do own a half dozen pairs of women"s boots, but they are more fashionable than practical, so I may have to resort to wearing boy boots to slog around campus. The reason I will be at UCONN is to attend the True Colors Conference where I will be presenting a workshop titled "Makeup Basics for Trans Females." The Conference guide describes my workshop thusly, "Putting on your face can be a cosmetic calamity if you don"t have a roadmap. This workshop provides guidance and tips for the transgender female on how to successfully navigate the world of cosmetics so that she can start looking like the female she really is." Last year, I had over 40 people in attendance for that workshop, so I am looking forward to the Conference, but not the weather.  
Source: ShopBazaar
 
Vitalij S

How High is High?

Yesterday, our male mail man (how redundant is that?) delivered my new shoes from Payless. Whenever I shop in person at Payless, I try on sizes 11, 12 and 13 even though 12 is my "normal" size because sizing is very inconsistent and varies depending on the style and the maker of the shoe. So buying shoes online is a crapshoot and I try to avoid it because my success rate is about 50%. But occasionally this girl falls in love with a shoe that she just knows will not be on the racks in her size at her local Payless store, so she orders online and hopes for the best – as was the case with the shoes USPS delivered yesterday. As quick as a Playboy bunny, I switched from boy sox to knee-highs and tried on my new shoes. They fit perfectly and felt comfortable as I took a short tour around the house. I was a happy camperette, put the shoes back in their box and stacked the box with my other shoe boxes, while plotting outfits to wear with my new shoes. Then it occurred to me that the heels of the shoes looked higher than I expected them to be. Not that I have any trouble walking in high heels, but I was curious about their height because Payless claimed they had a 3 ½-inch heel. So I got out Stan's Stanley tape measure (all his tools are personally engraved) to size up the heels of my new shoes and confirmed my suspicions: the heels were 4 ¼ inches high, not 3 ½ inches high. This girl knows her heels!
Source: Intermix
Source: Intermix
Mindy
Long time Femulate reader, pretty Mindy

How High is High?

Yesterday, our male mail man (how redundant is that?) delivered my new shoes from Payless. Whenever I shop in person at Payless, I try on sizes 11, 12 and 13 even though 12 is my "normal" size because sizing is very inconsistent and varies depending on the style and the maker of the shoe. So buying shoes online is a crapshoot and I try to avoid it because my success rate is about 50%. But occasionally this girl falls in love with a shoe that she just knows will not be on the racks in her size at her local Payless store, so she orders online and hopes for the best – as was the case with the shoes USPS delivered yesterday. As quick as a Playboy bunny, I switched from boy sox to knee-highs and tried on my new shoes. They fit perfectly and felt comfortable as I took a short tour around the house. I was a happy camperette, put the shoes back in their box and stacked the box with my other shoe boxes, while plotting outfits to wear with my new shoes. Then it occurred to me that the heels of the shoes looked higher than I expected them to be. Not that I have any trouble walking in high heels, but I was curious about their height because Payless claimed they had a 3 ½-inch heel. So I got out Stan's Stanley tape measure (all his tools are personally engraved) to size up the heels of my new shoes and confirmed my suspicions: the heels were 4 ¼ inches high, not 3 ½ inches high. This girl knows her heels!
Source: Intermix
Source: Intermix
Mindy
Long time Femulate reader, pretty Mindy

Buying Tutu Dresses Guide for Cross Dressers (Male to Female Transgender / Crossdressing Tips)

What are Tutu Skirts?

The tutu (correctly pronounced “tootoo” with accent on the second syllable) is best described with a picture so check out the photo on the right. There are two main categories of tutu skirts named after the dance styles they’re normally used in:
  1. Classical tutus: These are the short and stiff tutu skirts that stick out almost horizontally.
  1. Romantic tutus: They are usually longer and hang down more. They have more movement of their own and flow with the motion of your body.
In ballet class, you usually don’t wear tutu dresses. You normally just wear tights and a leotard. For class, you have what we call practice tutus. They are not for performances and so they look quite plain. Also they are usually just the skirt by itself while the tutu dresses for performance are basically dresses with the tutu skirt securely attached to the bodice. Practice tutus are literally just for practice. Sometimes you can buy them attached to the leotard, sometimes they come on their own. In ballet, even men wear tights and leotards. This is normal and, even though non dancing folks like to make fun of that, in the ballet community, men wearing tights is not only acceptable but essential. Interested in taking a ballet class? Then check out my article on ballet for crossdressers. But men wearing tutu skirts are not very common certainly not in class. In some performances, tutu dresses will be worn by men who are playing the part of a woman. Take for example Cinderella where it is traditional for men to play the part of the three ugly sisters (Go and watch it when you get a chance - even if only for the music).

Tutu Skirts for Men

They exist too! Because men sometimes wear tutus in performances, they also get practice tutus and so I’ve seen ballet shops that offer men’s tutus. They’re not that feminine really and I wouldn't call them beautiful. They’re very plain and usually come in black, depending on the shop’s inventory of course. And of course you can get men’s tutus in larger sizes. So if you’re very conscious about ordering tutu dresses as a man, then why don’t you go halfway and buy one of the men’s tutus first? Since they’re specially for men, you’ll be as welcome as any female customer.
 

Old… Not

Some things never get old. After doing my hair and makeup, that first reflection of a woman I see in the mirror. Being referred to as “she” and “her” while I am out among the civilians. Wearing high heels. Hearing the click of my high heels. When a gentleman holds a door open for me. Touching up your hair and makeup in the ladies’ room. When a civilian female engages you in conversation. Smoothing the back of my skirt as I sit down. Carrying a purse. Taking my compact out of my purse to touch up my makeup. Being called "Ma"am." Even better... being called "Miss." When a complete stranger stops to say, "I like what you"re wearing!" Shopping. Dangly earrings. Wearing lipstick. Admiring glances. Realizing that while I am presenting as a woman, it comes so naturally that I don’t have to think about i
Source: Lulus
Forces in Petticoats
British soldiers femulating on stage in Forces in Petticoats, circa 1952.

Warnings and Nightmares from Buttocks and Hip Fillers

All types of booty injectables: Hydrogel, PMMA and silicone can have problems – many of which are life-lasting, some are life threatening.

The primary source of these problems are:
1. Doing too much at once
2. Doing too much volume for your body to handle
3. Getting injected by an unskilled, unlicensed practitioner
4. Being injected with a low quality or dangerous filler concoction.

PMMA Injections Problems

The recent horrors of Brazilian beauty queen Andressa Urach should be a wake-up call to any gal considering PMMA injections.

PMMA Nightmares 01

Having just placed second in the annual Miss BumBum contest that selects the hottest booty in all of Brazil – Miss Urach began to use PMMA to enhance the appearance of muscle tone in her thighs. The results are a nightmare – her healthy tissue became infected and began to rot. She nearly died. She’ll face a lifetime of health challenges and pain.

PMMA Nightmares 02

While most results are visible immediately after filling – so too are certain nightmares if they happen in your case including a negative immune response which causes the lungs to fill with fluid, or from a pulmonary embolism. Both an immune response and an embolism can cause rapid and certain death. Not doing too much at once and steering clear of breast/chest injections are two ways you can reduce this risk.

Silicone Buttocks Injections Problems

Changes in your soft tissue after silicone injections are inevitable no matter who does it or what quality of silicone is utilized. Acute changes such as hardness, lumps, and infection necessitate immediate medical attention. The latter circumstances will require specialists in such care.

When properly injected with high-grade silicone, there are not usually any side effects from minor injections. The problems occur when the volumes required to achieve an extra large booty are required. When you inject silicone at too high a volume (like to volume needed to increase the size of the buttock) granulomas can form. Once a granuloma forms it can sometimes be treated with steroids. Other problems can include infections, granulomas, cellulitis, and persistent skin infections, disfigurement and skin dimpling.  It is very easy to have silicone injected, but very difficult to have it removed.  The removal can frequently be very complex, involve lengthy surgery and multiple operations is not uncommon.  Finally, it’s not uncommon to expect scars in locations that would otherwise be undesirable?


Warnings and Nightmares from Buttocks and Hip Fillers

All types of booty injectables: Hydrogel, PMMA and silicone can have problems – many of which are life-lasting, some are life threatening.

The primary source of these problems are:
1. Doing too much at once
2. Doing too much volume for your body to handle
3. Getting injected by an unskilled, unlicensed practitioner
4. Being injected with a low quality or dangerous filler concoction.

PMMA Injections Problems

The recent horrors of Brazilian beauty queen Andressa Urach should be a wake-up call to any gal considering PMMA injections.

PMMA Nightmares 01

Having just placed second in the annual Miss BumBum contest that selects the hottest booty in all of Brazil – Miss Urach began to use PMMA to enhance the appearance of muscle tone in her thighs. The results are a nightmare – her healthy tissue became infected and began to rot. She nearly died. She’ll face a lifetime of health challenges and pain.

PMMA Nightmares 02

While most results are visible immediately after filling – so too are certain nightmares if they happen in your case including a negative immune response which causes the lungs to fill with fluid, or from a pulmonary embolism. Both an immune response and an embolism can cause rapid and certain death. Not doing too much at once and steering clear of breast/chest injections are two ways you can reduce this risk.

Silicone Buttocks Injections Problems

Changes in your soft tissue after silicone injections are inevitable no matter who does it or what quality of silicone is utilized. Acute changes such as hardness, lumps, and infection necessitate immediate medical attention. The latter circumstances will require specialists in such care.

When properly injected with high-grade silicone, there are not usually any side effects from minor injections. The problems occur when the volumes required to achieve an extra large booty are required. When you inject silicone at too high a volume (like to volume needed to increase the size of the buttock) granulomas can form. Once a granuloma forms it can sometimes be treated with steroids. Other problems can include infections, granulomas, cellulitis, and persistent skin infections, disfigurement and skin dimpling.  It is very easy to have silicone injected, but very difficult to have it removed.  The removal can frequently be very complex, involve lengthy surgery and multiple operations is not uncommon.  Finally, it’s not uncommon to expect scars in locations that would otherwise be undesirable?